I just discovered this a few days ago. And sure enough, it was as if God was saying, “here, you need to hear this. Here are the words you need to say but don’t always know how.”
This song speaks to me because of the simplicity and yet power in the words “I will trust you.”
In a year of, no, scratch that, in a season of growth, the refrain that God is coaxing out of my heart is “I will trust you.”
A refrain that started over a year ago with my manager transitioning roles.
A refrain that I still stumble over, doubting the words as I utter them.
And a little over a week ago, as I doubted that promised changes were coming to my role, I felt fear controlling my life all over again instead of faith and trust in Jesus.
I was shook.
I was a mess.
I didn’t feel supported.
I felt alone.
I wondered what action I needed to take.
“Stop. Breathe. Pray.”
Those were the words a friend spoke to me. She could tell I was a mess.
We become messes when we don’t trust Jesus.
Fast forward to this week, and a meeting settled the reservations I had. I was worrying unnecessarily. I was a Thomas in a world that needs Peter.
And then I heard the song. And it was as if God was saying, “See, trust ME. Don’t worry. I have your back. Continually believe it and let your heart say ‘I will trust you.'”
“Through everything, I will trust you. You will always be faithful. I’m strong when I’m with you. Through everything I will trust you.”
After the year I had, after just this past week, this song is my anthem.
God continues to show up.
Even when I doubt Him.
Even when I put my trust in myself.
What would it look like if the refrain from this song was on our lips from the moment we woke up to the moment our eyes closed shut at night?
“I will trust you in the chaos in the mystery of my life. What was broken what was missing what I need you will provide.”
God desires our heart’s affection.
The pure simplicity of the gospel is us saying “I will trust you.”
And yet we let our fears override the trust gear. Our anxieties kick in and before we know it we are shaking with tears in our eyes huddled in a corner.
If we could just actualize the lyrics of this song, what kind of church would we actually be?
It’s all true. Every word. My mind knows it. I’ve experienced it all from Jesus. He is what these lyrics say He is. And yet, my heart still fails to believe at times. So I will repeat these words day and night. I will shout them on my runs. I will use this song to remind me of who He is.
“I will trust you.”